No us, no them.

I work for a company with people who live all around the world, including Israel and Palestine.

Just as not all Americans are bad people who love guns and think a “god” gave them this land to take as they see fit, not all Israelis feel that way either, and not all Palestinians hate Israelis. The Israeli military is not all Israelis, despite the fact that everyone is forced to serve. Zionists are not all Israelis. Hamas is not all Palestinians. The news never tells us everything.

I did not choose to be born in a place my ancestors stole, but I am here, and if you know anything about me, you know that I really give a shit about that. A lot of Israelis feel the same way about where they were born, too. They deeply love and respect the land where they live and are intimately connected to it, and they also understand that they share it with other people (obviously this is the abbreviated version, and there are different understandings about how and why everyone is there). Regardless, like many Americans, they don’t have or desire anywhere else to “go,” either, so instead, they work for peace and mutual respect and the end of an occupation mentality. And there are many Palestinians who do the same. They work from opposite ends of experience, but they meet in the middle and try to understand it all.

Many years ago, I traveled there, and I stayed in Jerusalem for a while, an epicenter of Abrahamic religious tension – the three biggest patriarchal religions all claiming to own rights to some ancient bricks, requiring that anyone desiring of the religious experience of touching them walk through metal detectors first.

Just like we have here in the US, there are a certain type of people who feed into this tension, and who believe in the might of military and weaponry to oversee it. It’s not everyone, though. Later during those travels, I stayed with an Israeli family. During a religious observance when all the electricity was shut off throughout the town, I snuck out with the family’s teenagers so they could go meet their Palestinian friends and hang out under the cover of darkness. And they were teenagers, smoking cigarettes, laughing, making eyes at each other, speaking each other’s languages and enjoying the excitement of illicit activity.

I can’t see another “free Palestine” post today. Stop it. I believe in the freedom of Palestine, too. I don’t, at all, approve of these settler rampages that destroy Palestinian homes, olive groves and businesses, believing in their god-given redneck right to steal the land. I do not approve of the Israeli army killing people (especially backed with weaponry provided by the United States). And I do not approve of Hamas taking people hostage, raping or killing people, either. A land of generationally traumatized people is at war with itself, breeding atrocities. There is no end to this. No one wins.

If there is a god, and if that god is why we are, in all of these patriarchal religions, the sole species blessed with the gift of reason, we are not at all serving this god by acting like this. “They” are every bit as much of us as we are “them.” We are all human, and we are the worst kind of animal; we have been caged by our own rage and fear and are now terrified, without trust, faith, or the ability to truly use the gifts this god as purportedly bestowed upon us.

Pray for Palestine. Pray for Israel. Pray for humanity. Or in lieu of all that, just be a good human. Work for peace and the evolution of this species, because if we aren’t already there, we are on our way to hell.

*** Feature image by hosny salah from Pixabay

oh the times…

Suffice it to say I feel so far removed from new york these days. I have never had the chance (or desire, really) to see what sprung up out of the giant hole where the world trade center once stood. I never went back there.

Here is what i do remember: it was an ordinary day, a sunny day at the beginning of fall, and i was getting ready to ride my bike into manhattan and go to work. Instead, i left my bike flat in the hallway and ran to the roof, moments before a collective, citywide scream as the second plane plowed into a building, knowing i was standing on my rooftop watching thousands of people die, then watching the towers fall and knowing something wasn’t right – the way they fell was far too similar to the way the Purina plant in Brooklyn fell during its planned implosion just a few months prior.

The flag-waving frenzy that ensued, the free air conditioners, vacuums and air purifiers FEMA provided while telling us that air was “safe to breath”, the “missing” posters of suburban husbands in their white button-downs and ties, the exhaustion and sadness on the faces of first responders and rescue teams – it was a lot. It was intense. It was hard for me to express what I was feeling. What i saw looked like something out of a Hollywood movie. It was hard to believe it was real. When does anyone ever witness a plane flying into the side of a huge skyscraper and exploding? It has taken me years to sort this out.

New Yorkers slowed down for a minute tho, and suddenly everyone was kind. For a minute, we were a people united in a horrible, shared experience and that New Yorker way of dealing with shit: we took to the streets, expressed ourselves, and got stuff done.

9/11/01 was the death of thousands, and the birth of my full, acknowledged disillusion in so much. It was the day “we the people” took on a whole new meaning, a day a new faith was born in me, a deeper compassion, and a righteous indignation and rage that has been growing and refining itself since then as i learn how to be a true, peaceful warrior and how to use these potent expressions of power in an effective way.

There are people in this world who suffer these terrors and tragedies daily. Like so many of the New Yorkers that died on this day 15 years ago, they are everyday people with wisdom, lives, loves, and families, at the mercy of governments and war machines (aka “terrorists”). They are, daily, watching their worlds crumble around them and feeling the kind of horror, pain, sorrow and loss we got that one massive glimpse of so many years ago.

Never forget. Power to the people. More compassion. More love.