Was just looking more deeply into my travel itch (paloma and i got our passports done/renewed and they are on their way) and envisioning going somewhere awesome with her, somewhere both of our senses of wonder are equally exploding with the juicy joy of life. i am good on the road. depth comes easy there. and clarity. I throw myself into change and scenery because it is easy to grow in that process and place.
I love my current project but it is a means to a different kind of end, for sure, something that will give my daughter and i a home base somewhere chill and cheap. Somewhere to stop and make decisions and bask in a sense of home.
right now that goal is pretty all-consuming and leaves little time for an explosive sense of wonder that is easy for me to come by. Oh, therein lies the rub, and the work is clear, digging for joy in every moment (which reminds me, mostly, of a few miserable days of digging out what felt like miles of acequias in southwest new mexico and which, of course, i now look back upon with romantic fondness).
but jeez… Make it easy here and there, just for kicks, okay? Brief little moments are perfect, just enough to leave me with a touch of ache and yearning. It is such food for the journey.